Is Not Easy to be the Eldest

I'm trying to best to help my parents. Though i feel very fustrated about the divorce but i still have to face it and try get the best of both sides. I do feel my mother is to blamed for intiating the divorce, although she told me beforehand when i was in my teens that she was planning for it. I thought i can cope with it, but no. I can't cope. I'm breaking down. I'm fustrated. I'm lost. I'm crying.

The saddest part is my father is still living in denial and my mother cannot move forward....