3.09 AM
IS 3.09 am. Suppose to study but then again, can't. 2 reasons to it. Reason 1: Studying is making me sleepy. Reason 2: Thinking what the fuck is he doing now? Is he lying to me again? Last night had an argurement. Though things seems to be ok now.
Though we decided to start all over again. He seems to be doing fine but i'm not. I'm struggling... One moment i can move forward, but one moment i can't because the past creeps back. He is trying to give me assurance but is not enough. Is my problem. The only part i can do to make this relationship work is treat the past like it happened before i started out with him. Like I'm a new girlfriend, he is my new boyfriend. Is hard but i will get over it. As time goes by, the past will start to get vague, slowly everything will be fine. One thing i've to change is don't depend my contentment on him because he has things to pursue and i can't party with him. Right now, feeling kind of shitty because he's not with me. Anyway, as i said before, time will let things change for better. The beginning is always the hardest. And i hope one year later, we are still together and we are more bonded as before. BUT, life is so unpredictable.... I've to keep my fingers cross. I don't wish to know someone new....
Ppl, dun ask or call me about this post. I've made my decision to start all over again. Don't worry about me. I'm prepared for the worse but i'm hoping for the best too. I'm giving us one year to work things. I know some of you will scold me or condemn me but i'm following my heart.
Though we decided to start all over again. He seems to be doing fine but i'm not. I'm struggling... One moment i can move forward, but one moment i can't because the past creeps back. He is trying to give me assurance but is not enough. Is my problem. The only part i can do to make this relationship work is treat the past like it happened before i started out with him. Like I'm a new girlfriend, he is my new boyfriend. Is hard but i will get over it. As time goes by, the past will start to get vague, slowly everything will be fine. One thing i've to change is don't depend my contentment on him because he has things to pursue and i can't party with him. Right now, feeling kind of shitty because he's not with me. Anyway, as i said before, time will let things change for better. The beginning is always the hardest. And i hope one year later, we are still together and we are more bonded as before. BUT, life is so unpredictable.... I've to keep my fingers cross. I don't wish to know someone new....
Ppl, dun ask or call me about this post. I've made my decision to start all over again. Don't worry about me. I'm prepared for the worse but i'm hoping for the best too. I'm giving us one year to work things. I know some of you will scold me or condemn me but i'm following my heart.
posted by Miss Cranky at 3:31 AM
4 Comments:
Forgiveness is the healing of wounds caused by another. You choose to let go of a past wrong and no longer be hurt by it. Forgiveness is a strong move to make, like turning your shoulders sideways to walk quickly on a crowded sidewalk. It's your move.
'Tis the most tender part of love, each other to forgive.
Not to comment on your decision, juz to share with something, hoping that you will be better after..... all the best.
I donno y u choose to go back to him..of cos i noe is hard to forget but after all, is still ur own choice n feeling..As a friend, we can do nothing but support n comment. We don't wish to c u get hurt again. Hope that u have choose a right way!!
Cheers
FayeFaye
From Ah Wei
You hardly see me reading up Blog as i think you should know I'm not so hardcore in this kind of thing...No offence pls.
Wanting to read your blog is because we hardly meet up..not like in childhood time, our playground is only around "PohPoh" house and spent almost every after school time playing hid-and-seek and zero-point, etc.
"woa! I don't know that!" (I think I need to read yours, Minikang and Zhimin blog more often...so blur of me...)
Most folks are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.
So, go for it if you really make up your mind.
Life is unpredictable, I also hope it will turn out to be good but if it really goes to the other "direction"....just always remember: You have your cousins (means me, chyuan, gina, kok, lingyan lah) around.
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.
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